Loving a Pisces is like loving a storm. The storm arrives and is felt. Then leaves behind a mess. That mess is me. I haven't truly sat to count the years; now that would be sad and pathetic but it's been a very long time.
He is charming, lovely actually. His smile can be felt not just seen and his laugh is contagious. He is generous and kind, smart and hopeful. On the flip side he is manipulative, indecisive, borders on cruel. His method is the just pretend that he does not understand (he probably doesn't).
How to Survive a Pisces. It's come to that...reading a book that tells me what I already know. He doesn't love me and never will. His character is his zodiac to the T. When he wants something there is nothing that will stop him from getting it. That means I have not been on the want list.
Our friendship or the friendship that was....turned into a friends with benefits. That would be the train wreck. The hardest part is that I know in my heart of hearts I created this mess that I can't uncreate.
I said 'friends with benefits' because I knew he wanted nothing more. Of course he started the shift from friends to something else but me being the Libra that I am, I need it categorized. To know what I am doing and finding a balance to it. The balance to 'oh shit, this is wrong, you will get hurt', trust me a Libra can do it. I did. But like any scale it is bound to eventually tip over if not from weight then age and wear and tear.
So where does all this leave me? In a car at 5 am waiting on the people I live with to wake up and let me in because I slept with the Pisces again (instigated by me of course) then realized at 3:30 am that I felt the way I always do afterward.....horrible. It didn't help that while I slept he crept into his bedroom and left me in the guest room. Nor did it help that I invited myself for the purpose of sex and knew I was not invited to stay the night. My exhausted and need for a bed until morning won out of morals.
It truly didn't help that the closer and greater the sex, the more distant we are afterward. Nope, none of that helps. Because a Pisces wants what they want and a Libra needs to know where she stands.
I know where I stand. Actually sit, I sit in a car waiting on the opportunity to find a room for rent and get out of the psycho place I am in. I sit in this car knowing I am no closer to him then yesterday or the yesteryears. I sit in this car knowing everything in my life needs a major overhaul.
A Pisces will keep taking until they are cut off. A Libra will keep giving until they are a martyr.
These two signs are as compatible as oil and vinegar. Can't bond but tastes great together.
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